The First Steps

From a early age I've known that I loved food. I grew up in a family that loved to cook, and every bit of food that was cooked I savored. As you can imagine, yes, I was that fat kid growing up that had no friends. Just a girl with her food, music, and good grades of course! As I aged I have realized that my love for food will most likely never change, food is my friend and it will always be that way.

At my all time high I have weighed in at 180 pounds, which is very sad to admit. I am but 17 years old, and a massive 5 foot 7-8 inches. I home-schooled most of my high-school life and just recently graduated. Still, having no friends, I turn to food. Food is a soothing thing. I eat when I'm happy, I eat when I'm sad, I eat simply because I love the flavor in my mouth.

Getting off topic, after looking for lack of a better word a “fat lard” for so long, I have decided that I can eat the food I love as long as I exercise and burn those extra calories. Even if I have to walk an extra hour, just so I can eat the foods I love, I will. I have envied those that can eat bottomless portions and never have to exercise. I just recently came to the grips that I will pretty much have to work for everything in my natural born life.

Today, I weigh somewhere close to 175 pounds, this is just from these last two weeks alone. I have started walked at least once a day for 30 minutes, sometimes much longer if I have a boring day. I have also been keeping a Health Log, in which I record: what I eat, how much I weigh at the moment, when and how long I walked, and the measurements of my body. I do all of this to keep myself on track, if I see my progress, I feel more motivated to walk that extra mile, to more carefully plan my meals and still enjoy them.

Also today, I went to the dentist! Come to find out that pretty much all of my teeth are starting to decay. Which is a big no-no, I was told to cut all of the pop and Gatoraide out of my life, well, at least down to once a week. Which is also a big step for me. I have to drink Poweraide because my body doesn't produce enough electrolytes, while in the process is also rotting out my teeth. A word of advice from my dentist: drink Smart Water, or even invest in a mineral supplement. I was told that for a girl my size I need to be drinking 4, 16.9 ounce bottles of water a day to keep my blood oxygenated.

I would also like to inform those reading that I only have two heart valves, instead of three. For me, I will not be doing any running, pushups, pullups, situps, or anything of that nature anytime in the foreseeable future, set in the fact that I cannot do these things, my face turns purple from the lack of oxygen and I can't breathe.

Lastly, I would like to say that I am a fat kid, I love food, and I love how exercise is starting to make me feel. My weight loss journey starts here. I will make myself into the person that I want to be. I will become 130 pounds. I'm doing this for me, and only me. To finally see myself as beautiful.