From a early age I've known
that I loved food. I grew up in a family that loved to cook, and
every bit of food that was cooked I savored. As you can imagine, yes,
I was that fat kid growing up that had no friends. Just a girl with
her food, music, and good grades of course! As I aged I have realized
that my love for food will most likely never change, food is my
friend and it will always be that way.
At my all time high I have
weighed in at 180 pounds, which is very sad to admit. I am but 17
years old, and a massive 5 foot 7-8 inches. I home-schooled most of
my high-school life and just recently graduated. Still, having no
friends, I turn to food. Food is a soothing thing. I eat when I'm
happy, I eat when I'm sad, I eat simply because I love the flavor in
my mouth.
Getting off topic, after
looking for lack of a better word a “fat lard” for so long, I
have decided that I can eat the food I love as long as I exercise and
burn those extra calories. Even if I have to walk an extra hour, just
so I can eat the foods I love, I will. I have envied those that can
eat bottomless portions and never have to exercise. I just recently
came to the grips that I will pretty much have to work for everything
in my natural born life.
Today, I weigh somewhere
close to 175 pounds, this is just from these last two weeks alone. I
have started walked at least once a day for 30 minutes, sometimes
much longer if I have a boring day. I have also been keeping a Health
Log, in which I record: what I eat, how much I weigh at the moment,
when and how long I walked, and the measurements of my body. I do all
of this to keep myself on track, if I see my progress, I feel more
motivated to walk that extra mile, to more carefully plan my meals
and still enjoy them.
Also today, I went to the
dentist! Come to find out that pretty much all of my teeth are
starting to decay. Which is a big no-no, I was told to cut all of the
pop and Gatoraide out of my life, well, at least down to once a week.
Which is also a big step for me. I have to drink Poweraide because my
body doesn't produce enough electrolytes, while in the process is
also rotting out my teeth. A word of advice from my dentist: drink
Smart Water, or even invest in a mineral supplement. I was told that
for a girl my size I need to be drinking 4, 16.9 ounce bottles of
water a day to keep my blood oxygenated.
I would also like to inform
those reading that I only have two heart valves, instead of three.
For me, I will not be doing any running, pushups, pullups, situps, or
anything of that nature anytime in the foreseeable future, set in the
fact that I cannot do these things, my face turns purple from the
lack of oxygen and I can't breathe.
Lastly, I would like to say
that I am a fat kid, I love food, and I love how exercise is starting
to make me feel. My weight loss journey starts here. I will make
myself into the person that I want to be. I will become 130 pounds.
I'm doing this for me, and only me. To finally see myself as
beautiful.
